38:4 For my sins overwhelm me; 1
like a heavy load, they are too much for me to bear.
38:5 My wounds 2 are infected and starting to smell, 3
because of my foolish sins. 4
38:6 I am dazed 5 and completely humiliated; 6
all day long I walk around mourning.
38:7 For I am overcome with shame 7
and my whole body is sick. 8
38:8 I am numb with pain and severely battered; 9
I groan loudly because of the anxiety I feel. 10
38:9 O Lord, you understand my heart’s desire; 11
my groaning is not hidden from you.
38:10 My heart beats quickly;
my strength leaves me;
I can hardly see. 12
38:11 Because of my condition, 13 even my friends and acquaintances keep their distance; 14
my neighbors stand far away. 15
38:12 Those who seek my life try to entrap me; 16
those who want to harm me speak destructive words;
all day long they say deceitful things.
38:13 But I am like a deaf man – I hear nothing;
I am like a mute who cannot speak. 17
38:14 I am like a man who cannot hear
and is incapable of arguing his defense. 18
38:15 Yet 19 I wait for you, O Lord!
You will respond, O Lord, my God!
38:16 I have prayed for deliverance, because otherwise they will gloat over me; 20
when my foot slips they will arrogantly taunt me. 21
38:17 For I am about to stumble,
and I am in constant pain. 22
38:18 Yes, 23 I confess my wrongdoing,
and I am concerned about my sins.
38:19 But those who are my enemies for no reason are numerous; 24
those who hate me without cause outnumber me. 25
38:20 They repay me evil for the good I have done;
though I have tried to do good to them, they hurl accusations at me. 26
38:21 Do not abandon me, O Lord!
My God, do not remain far away from me!
38:22 Hurry and help me, 27 O Lord, my deliverer!
1 tn Heb “pass over my head.”
2 sn The reference to wounds may be an extension of the metaphorical language of v. 2. The psalmist pictures himself as one whose flesh is ripped and torn by arrows.
3 tn Heb “my wounds stink, they are festering” (cf. NEB).
4 tn Heb “from before my foolishness.”
5 tn The verb’s precise shade of meaning in this context is not entirely clear. The verb, which literally means “to bend,” may refer to the psalmist’s posture. In Isa 21:3 it seems to mean “be confused, dazed.”
6 tn Heb “I am bowed down to excess.”
7 tn Heb “for my loins are filled with shame.” The “loins” are viewed here as the seat of the psalmist’s emotions. The present translation assumes that נִקְלֶה (niqleh) is derived from קָלָה (qalah, “be dishonored”). Some derive it instead from a homonymic root קָלָה (qalah), meaning “to roast.” In this case one might translate “fever” (cf. NEB “my loins burn with fever”).
8 tn Heb “there is no soundness in my flesh” (see v. 3).
9 tn Heb “I am numb and crushed to excess.”
10 tn Heb “I roar because of the moaning of my heart.”
11 tn Heb “O Lord, before you [is] all my desire.”
12 tn Heb “and the light of my eyes, even they, there is not with me.” The “light of the eyes” may refer to physical energy (see 1 Sam 14:27, 29), life itself (Ps 13:3), or the ability to see (Prov 29:23).
13 tn Or “wound,” or “illness.”
14 tn Heb “stand [aloof].”
15 tn Heb “and the ones near me off at a distance stand.”
16 tn Heb “lay snares.”
17 sn I am like a deaf man…like a mute. The psalmist is like a deaf mute; he is incapable of defending himself and is vulnerable to his enemies’ deception (see v. 14).
18 tn Heb “and there is not in his mouth arguments.”
19 tn Or perhaps “surely.”
20 tn Heb “For I said, ‘Lest they rejoice over me.’” The psalmist recalls the motivating argument of his petition. He probably prefaced this statement with a prayer for deliverance (see Pss 7:1-2; 13:3-4; 28:1).
21 tn Heb “they will magnify against me.” See Pss 35:26; 55:13.
22 tn Heb “and my pain [is] before me continually.”
23 tn Or “for.” The translation assumes that כִּי (ki) is asseverative here.
24 tn Heb “and my enemies, life, are many.” The noun חַיִּים (khayyim, “life”) fits very awkwardly here. The translation assumes an emendation to חִנָּם (khinam, “without reason”; note the parallelism with שֶׁקֶר [sheqer, “falsely”] and see Pss 35:19; 69:4; Lam 3:52). The verb עָצַם (’atsam) can sometimes mean “are strong,” but here it probably focuses on numerical superiority (note the parallel verb רָבַב, ravav, “be many”).
25 tn Heb “are many.”
26 tn Heb “the ones who repay evil instead of good accuse me, instead of my pursuing good.”
27 tn Heb “hurry to my help.” See Ps 22:19.